An eye opener

Well I got the email i was so impatiently waiting for...
and unfortunately, i didnt get the character performer role.

I was in shock. First off, it was a saturday night at 6pm...why would they send me my email then? And its not like i was planning on getting the role, but i was seriously hoping for it. I was pretty upset for the rest of the night, i even had a huge halloween party to go to (of course as minnie mouse) and i couldnt even truly enjoy myself there. I drank my pain away and eventually fell asleep.

When i woke up this morning, i had this brief moment where i hoped i had dreamed it. For a moment i hoped it wasnt real. But reality hit me like a wall and i didnt even want to get out of bed.

But then i really thought about it. Why did i want to be a character performer? It was to interact with guests and bring to life something that made kids or even adults happy. I wanted to be apart of that. But i realized that i can do that exact same thing in attractions, but i get to be MYSELF. guests will recognize ME for creating that happiness rather than some character. Portraying a character would be great, but then they will never know who I truly am.

I think back to my last program when a family sent in a picture of me pin trading with their son and daughter to my manager. That family said how thankful they were for that interaction and how much their kids loved my enthusiasm for pin trading. i would NEVER get that as a character. I would be filling the shoes of something that many other people did. I would be blending in. Being something thats expected of me. Being something im NOT.

In attractions i get to create magical memories as myself, and there is nothing better than that. and i get to pick up those AWESOME parade shifts and maybe even fantasmic shifts if they still do that!!! :) and i have a feeling that my interviewer has an AWESOME location chosen for me to work at. I have Faith :)

I belive God has a plan for me. There is a reason for everything. Maybe it will be something as simple as in attractions i will have this incredible experience with a guest. something life changing. Or maybe i will meet some managers that will lead me to a full time position i wouldnt have gotten if i was in entertainment. Who knows. But I know theres a reason.

Now im sure i will audition again, because i still believe it would be a fun opportunity. And if i made it until the very final cut of my audition, obviously they liked me and there is someone i could be. BUt they just didnt have the openings or someone else out danced me. And that wont stop me from trying again, and if its meant to be, its meant to be. :)

and as today marks 70 days until i leave for DIsney, i feel wonderful. although occasionally my stomach drops when i think about losing the entertainment position because of the overdrawn excitement from hearing back, i just remember that now I get to make the memories, not some character. I get to be the one to make a difference and i dont have to hide myself behind a character to do it.

And out of the 50,000+ that applied for the entire program, i am one of the FEW thousand that get the opportunity to do the program, let alone to be doing it for a second time! I couldnt ask for more than that. :)

Thankyou Disney, for opening my eyes <3

Diary of an impatient girl.....

I need to confess....

I am STRAIGHT UP FREAKING OUT.

Character Performer acceptances have been rolling out for 2 days now, as well as declined emails... and i havent heard anything!!! I havent decided if this is good or bad yet....

SO many people seem to be getting accepted and everytime i think... thats another spot filled.... i just want to know SO BAD.

2 days ago it started with mostly people under 5'2" getting accepted. This morning started the same but as the day went on taller people would get accepted with a few super tall guys here and there. It made me think they are maybe going by height sort of... and im at the top! A couple late acceptances went out tonight to some taller girls, so i have my fingers crossed i will hear something tomorrow now that so many of the shorter people are out of the way!

Im trying SO HARD NOT to get my hopes up... because if i do and get a NLIC email... im going to be beyond heartbroken. You'll see me at branns downing margaritas tomorrow night to take away the pain LOL

I just need to remember that they have declined some people and im not one of them so far, and thats good! they need to spread out the acceptances throughout several days, they said so in the blog update below!!!

So they are testing my patience. I get it. But im going crazy here!!! Im praying tomorrow is the day... i have hardly anything going on, so im going to have to do my best to keep busy... and try not to FREAK THE F OUT everytime my email goes off.... :)

So send my wishful thoughts and prayers as i await my answer.

I dreamt it... so I can do it. Walt DIsney said so himself :) <3

Disney Entertainment Audition!

O.M.G.

SO I went to the character audition in Ann Arbor today...

AND IM MADE IT THRU THE FINAL CUT

SERIOUSLY cant believe it. I know it doesnt necessarily mean anything, but just that they are considering me out of all those people that showed up...blows my mind!

Here's what happened:

So i got to the audition an hour before check in started, which was at 10:30. Thankfully the opened the doors and let us in at 10 to get settled. From there we got measured and put our basic info down like name and email. this process took well over a half hour because there was about 130 people there!! 

We were scheduled to start at 11, but they waited for the last few people to check in, so we started at 11:15ish. All 130 of us were cramed into a small room and this is where the leader told us the basics. Such as what being an entertainer at DIsney World means and that they are only looking for certain spots to fill so they encourage you to try out again if you dont make it!

From there we learned the first dance. Im not going to give away details, but its just a simple dance with a mini animation before hand :) easy stuff! we practiced it over and over, then they split us into two groups of 60. My group went first

So in rows of 4 we performed the mini animation and dance, moving across the floor toward the judge. I made sure to ham it up as MUCH as possible, dancing with huge movements and giving it my all! it was one shot, so i made sure to make it count! after that we left the room and the next 60 did the dance. once they were finished we all got back together in the room. This whole process took just over an hour from when we started at 11:15.

From here he explained a little more about being a character performer and basically told everyone to not be sad if they didn't make it. he said they expect to see 2,000 people this season alone, and there are only around 150 spots. From here he read the numbers....

i was number 20 so i knew my pain would be over quickly. I figured with my height and build, i would not be chosen....but when he called my number I had to try so hard to keep from crying. i was SO EXCITED that they considered me to move on. All the friends I had made unfortunately didnt get to proceed, so as i stayed while the majority left, i suddenly knew no one. The group of 130 now shrunk to 40. NOW i was nervous.

Once  again, I don't want to reveal to much but I had to do a huge animation sequence, something they have never done before in any audition, so we were the guinea pigs. Lets just say you had to truly take on the persona of a character and animate your HEART out. They had us do it again and again and would give us critiques on what to change or add. Then we learned another dance, MUCH harder than the first. This one consided of complicated dance steps that i was horrible at. But the choreographer ensured that it wasnt about the dance, it was about your personality and shining even when you failed the dance.

So we practiced the animation and dance a few times and eventually got dismissed and would return in groups of 5 to officially audition. I was the second group to go, and i was nervous.... but yet not. I knew if i was myself, there was nothing more i could do. They would either like me or they wouldnt! so i gave it all i had, and made sure they wouldnt forget my face :) we did the animation once, and dance twice afterwords. Then we were dismissed and allowed to go home! Some people where called back for a question, but he said that people that were finished could get it and the people called back may not. The call back was just to answer a simple question or take another picture for face or something like that. He said if he knew he wanted you, there was nothing else to ask so thats why he didnt call some people back. 

Walking out of there I felt SO WONDERFUL. It was well worth the 2.5 hour drive.... and to know im in the running... i cant handle the wait!!! He said they had one week of auditions left, and then they would start sending out emails, and we would hear back no later than Nov 15.... this is going to be a longggg wait. 

Im trying not to get my hopes up, because a lot of people make it to the end, just to not make it... but at least i can say i made it that far!! My fingers are crossed that ill get that email....to be "friends" with someone would be a dream come true... i cant imagine being given the opportunity to bring characters to life

it wouldnt get any better than that :) so ill just be over here, impatiently waiting for a response from casting.... hahaha

If you can Dream it you can Do it <3