It has now been 190 days since i started my Disney College Program.... over half a year since i started the biggest journey of my life... and right now, ill i can think about is going back....
The first few months home, i was so grateful to be back home.... i rarely thought of Disney, if anything it felt like a dream. But now that i've settled, i've begun to realize that i'm missing something. And that something is being in Disney.
Something is pulling me to go back. Whether its fate, God or my own desire, its impossible to ignore. And its driving me insane. Professional internship applications go up in 3 WEEKS. And the regular CP applications come out the week after that. I have 3 WEEKS to decide what i want to do. At this point, i don't believe its a question of whether or not i'm going back....
Its a question of when.
So do i return for another winter semester and go from Jan-May again?? Or do I go next Fall from August-December and be apart of the Halloween and Christmas events? Either way, going back will cause me to graduate a semester late...
But im definitely ok with that.
And then the decision lies in whether or not I do a professional internship or a CP? A professional internship would cause me to drive down myself, in my junker of a truck.... im not sure if i'd make it with the 250,000 miles on my truck....
Along with the $300 in gas ONE WAY it would cost me to drive.
Or I simply complete another CP, fly down with very little this time (which i learned the hard way last program) and take the cheaper option...
Decisions, decisions.....
and worse yet, i have less than a month to decide....
I could always apply, then deny if i change my mind.... but thats not very professional.
I will have to decide, and do it soon. And try to take in all the factors, such as my boyfriend, friends, horse and family. All the other things impacted by my decision.
Its Disney we are talking about here. It honestly shouldn't be this complicated.
